“The Lord is my light and my salvation— so why should I be afraid? The Lord is my fortress, protecting me from danger, so why should I tremble? When evil people come to devour me, when my enemies and foes attack me, they will stumble and fall. Though a mighty army surrounds me, my heart will not be afraid. Even if I am attacked, I will remain confident.” -Psalm 27:1-3
About 3 years ago someone shared a message with me about overcoming fear. At the time, freedom was something that I believed for many others, but was always just out of reach for me. Fear enveloped every part of my mind.
When I first moved to New York, I battled fear of terrorism so directly that even a plane overhead would bring me to tears. It was at some point then, that I was reminded of the message I heard on overcoming fear, “What would happen if you changed your what-ifs to even ifs?” Generally, I had tried to stay far, far away from playing out any scenario that could end in tragedy, but that was my way of trying to control my fear. I had too often pushed thoughts down so far that they would resurface as anger later on. Little by little, I learned the power of even if. I learned what it meant to look fear in the eyes and say, even if the worst of you comes true, I know that God is good. Even if terrorism strikes. Even if I lose my parents. Even if the money doesn’t come in. Even if I am alone.
Even if, even if, even if.
Over the last 2 years, I have walked further from the bondage of fear and fallen deeper into faith. See, God is a good God in every season. He’s good when it’s good. He’s good when it’s bad. He’s good when it seems hopeless. He’s good when you’re unsure. He’s good when you’re on top. God is good, and that’s the constant that we get to lean into every day of our lives.
In the Psalms, David wrote, “Even if I am attacked, I will remain confident.” Are you there today? Is your faith truly resting in the goodness of God, or in the things of this world? Have you been avoiding fear, conflict, pain, .. or processing the things that have happened in your past? There’s one thing I am sure of, and that is that God is good, all the time. There is safety in His arms, always. Lean into that today.
God, thank you for your unfailing love. Thank you for kindness that measures far beyond what we can see. Thank you that in the end, we get to be with You, and that even in death, You are good. I pray that you would give me the courage to fall into faith today, letting go of the things that have held me captive for so long. Lord, be with me and guide my heart into freedom. I trust that Your word will never fail me. Amen.